I MADE MY SELF REALLY USPET WRITING THIS (My Perfect Christmas)

Member Name: playmate

Product:	My Perfect Christmas
Date:	10/11/08 (205 review reads)
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Advantages: GETTING TO SEE MY GRANDMA AND PAPA AGAIN

Disadvantages: HAVING TO LOSE THEM ALL OVER AGAIN

My perfect Christmas? I've not had one of these for years. The reason? I miss my Grandma and Papa! You might think that this is silly but not for me.

My Grandma (Great Gran) died when I was five and my Papa (Great Grandad) died nearly 6 years ago, and Christmas in my family was always a really big time for all the family to come together. It seems to get harder and harder every year to just get on with it like they would have wanted. Unlike everyone else who is normally really happy and jolly at Christmas, I get very low and depressed, don't get me wrong I love Christmas, but its not the same when the people that you love and miss are not there, and I'm sure most of you will understand that feeling.

It was especially hard the first year that we were with out Papa, because at least when he was there it made me feel like Grandma was also there too, but now he is gone there is noting there to remind us of them.

It has been 18 years since my Grandma passed and there is not a day that doesn't go by that I wish they were both here with me, even just for the silly little things like getting good reviews from your boss, or just telling them about your day.

A few years ago was the worst as my Grandad had found a tape that he had recorded from when they were alive. On this tape my Grandad pretended to be Santa leaving me and my brother a message, but in this he mentioned everyone who was sitting at the dinner table with us and as soon as he mentioned Grandma and Papa I burst into tears. I know they wouldn't have wanted this but I couldn't help it. It really made me have a downer for the rest of the day.

So my ideal Christmas would be to wake up on Christmas morning and find that I was either 5 again, or they were both her with me. Then we would open all of our presents at my mum and dads house, and make a mess as usual! We would then all fight for the bathroom until we all fell out with each other. After the major pandemonium in the house we would then proceed to my Gran's house to start with dinner. Me and Grandma would cuddle up on the couch like we used to and Papa, my dad and my brother Mark would be talking about cars , while my mum and Gran would be in the kitchen getting everything ready for us to sit down and eat. As usual there would be enough food to feed the whole street with some left over too. After dinner we would then proceed to open the rest of our presents (we always have half at home and the rest at Gran's).

I guess the only bad thing would be knowing that after Christmas day was all finished, I would have to go through all the heart ache of having to say good bye to them all over again, but I guess id rather have that than not ever getting to see them again.

I know this will never happen but its good to dream, I love you both very much and I miss you like mad. Love you Grandma and Papa. xxxxx

Summary: CHRISTMAS IS A TIME FOR FAMILY