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Complementary/Natural Health in general |
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03/08/02 (42 review reads) |
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I had a strong opinion in me that was bursting to get out. The problem is I couldn't find a category in which to post it for it is far too general. I thus chose this health category as my op does in a way relate to mental health. If there is a better cat for it please inform me. Here it goes:
I am now at the adult wannabe age where I start devising my own philosophies in life. Where I develop a rebellious rage-against-the-machine attitude. I thought I'd treat you one of my general philosophies:
Arrogant, Big-headed, Overly confident, Vain, Sexy (no only joking. :-)) are but to mention a few tags I am labelled with on a day to day basis. I walk with a head-up-high-self-assured-swagger, I speak with minimal regional accent and dialect and I have a generally strong presence.
This, contrary to popular belief is not arrogance. This is not vanity, but is a mere bi-product of the fact that I love myself. I love the way I laugh, the way I get angry at really little things and even the way I act unmoved by things that hurt me. I just love my general being. I am unique and to quote the "great" Chezney Hawkes (Can I get away with this? F**k it.) 'I am the one and only.' This is the basis from which my 'arrogance' emerges or is at least seen to emerge.
The mistake is made when one confuses 'I think I'm great' with 'I think I'm greatER than everyone else.' This notion couldn't be further from the truth. I know I speak with the idealistic and overly optimistic attitude of a five year old or a preacher but I insist, we are all special and truly great. Just some of us, indeed most of us forget this at times. The we've-all-got-to-be-normal-and-down-to-earth attitude is drilled into us daily, primarily and ironically, by the 200 grand a year journalists claiming to be one of 'uz.'
We've all got to be Coronation Street and local pub and pint o larger and kebab
s and Ford Escort and Topman... We can't be wine bars and theatre and moisturising showergell for we would not be considered as being down to earth common chaps and alas may even be sentenced to being labelled with the dreaded POSH tag. Take Big Brother's Tim for example. Granted he was a prat but he was loathed for being 'posh' and not playing games like the rest of them. Catch my drift? Those who forget, forget because they wanted to be normal and fit in, thus lost the invaluable gift that is their individuality. 'Don't fancy going to't pub. I quite fancy going to't theatre but they'll think I'm trying to be all swanky.' My point is we should love ourselves enough to be able to heighten ourselves above 'the norm' and indeed consider ourselves to be better than average.
We are society's whores. The dominatrix that is 'the norm' stands eagerly waiting to whip us back into being ordinary and we must rebel and refuse to be whipped for we are far from ordinary. We must make like our fingerprints.
It is with this mindset that I approach each day. I am often seen as an eccentric due to this notion. A fine example is my mode of dress when I go out, which tends to consist mainly of seventies attire or at least clothes with a seventies influence. I don't know why but I find the style very appealing. I consider myself to be above 'the norm' hence I dare to disobey the rules of being down to earth as I refuse to wear the obligatory Topman shirt with white collars, instead opting for my patterned shirt with huge collars maybe accompanied with my diamond patterned tank-top etc. Imagine the scene- 200 men in the same room wearing the same shirts then me the arrogant outcast. 'How dare he be different?'
Admittedly I do often do things differently on purpose so as to intentionally deviate from common traits even if common traits are desired at the time. But this is merel
y because I value the sense that I am unique and special thus I strive to maintain my individuality. There is a part of me that does in a way want to be seen as a big-headed buffoon for again it makes me the outcast, again adding to the sense of individuality but I do get angry at times for I feel I'm generally misunderstood. I'm one of those that people don't take to at first but tend to warm to as they get to know me.
I truly believe that to have this psyche is very therapeutic. It is easy for me to feel like this for I am gifted with considerable intelligence, I'm tall, slim, quite good looking and I come from a comfortable background and I understand that it may prove difficult for others to do likewise for they have maybe been subject to many a bad situation etc. Yet to love ones self is a great starting block to recovery and self -fulfilment. I'll stop now before I regress into American-motivation mode.
YOU ARE GREAT. Remember that.
By the way that was for Jill but I can't remember what she told me to write here and can't be arsed going to check. :-)
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