drugs and mind games (My Experience of Substance Abuse)

Member Name: sallywags

Product:	My Experience of Substance Abuse
Date:	19/10/08 (47 review reads)
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Advantages: made me feel compleat

Disadvantages: the loss is somtimes too much..

realy mixed up.Imgoing to C/A but turn up on somthing.thats bad and I hate it cos its not fair on the people there that are clean.I would do any drug,Iv lost all my self respect,Im missing my x so much,if I told you what he did you couldent understand why.Hes been gone a year,thought it was time to move on so when dregs asked me to go with him,I did.we smoked crack and I tryed realy hard to love him but couldent.I gave him a hard time,afer 4wks I finished it.THEN guese what?found out got the bloody clap off him.so hear I am doing all the stuff I did before,but all alone and miss my x gary so so much.see he was the controler,the brains,cunning and scheming,hard as nails,I swear he was super human.he was hard on everyone even me. he hated tears or sign of weakness.he shut me in the cuboard under the stairs for 3 hours once for complaining of tummy cramps(I was clucking)so I became the hard bitch he wanted to please him,dare noy ever show my feelings.then there was the dark side of his past before I met him,he coldly told me how he put his x head through a glass table cos she took too long coming back with gear.yeah,gary.I miss him so so much...my life has no perpose or meaning without him.

Summary: just pretend everyything ok and maybe it will be..