The worst time in my life (Bullying in Schools)

Member Name: sarlozzer

Product:	Bullying in Schools
Date:	04/06/09 (9 review reads)
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Disadvantages: i didn't want to exist

Through out my life i have been a target for abuse and bullying, especially while i was in school.

It was proberly around the age of 8 when i started to be bullied all the way until i left secondary school, so to me it felt like a way of life if you understand what i mean, that everyday i was the target of abuse so i never new anything different.

I have always carried a few extra pounds, but when i recently found a few pictures of myself at school i was far from big, so the question i asked myself was why was i the target. I used to get called names which were really harsh, i used to get left out and riddiculed, the only thing i can say now is i was lucky it was only mental torture not phisical as well. I suppose the more bullied i got the more i ate to try and comfort myself, which made me get bullied even more. I was in a cirlcle i couldn't get out of.

Children can be very mean, however i do believe a lot of this can be put down to ignorance. It can make a bully feel very big to be the one who causes the pain.

Even though i have been targeted all of my life i am not innocent, when i was around 15 i started to retaliate, where i then became the bully towards the people who had done it to me. I can understand why i became a bully, out of relaliation, pain and just having enough, but when i was a child i didn't understand why others treated me badly. There is no excuse what i did, and i feel terrible still years later, but when i look back that was the last resort in my head. For years i ran home from school and hid in my bedroom crying myself to sleep, this was defently the worst time in my life, i hated my life and didn't want to exist.

Summary: children can be mean, but i feel a lot of it is down to ignorance