Man Wanted? (General)

Member Name: Glory_FishesII

Product:	General
Date:	24/08/04 (72 review reads)
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INTRODUCTION

I don't really know why I am writing this all I know is that my head is going to explode if I don't put this down somewhere and maybe someone out there will be able to talk some sense into me.

I haven't got many things I really believe in. I do believe in bubblebaths, men who kiss like they mean it and friendship but I am finding it increasingly hard to believe in myself... or my future.

I am not a religious person , but I consider myself to be a deeply spiritual person in the respect that I have always been aware of a higher being as I have been like the kid of The Sixth Sense my whole life (and no before you ask I haven't seen Elvis)... but that is an entirely different opinion.

THE PSYCHOLOGY BIT

Last week I decided to have my tarot cards read by a professional reader. I have had them read about five times before and in fact read the cards myself for friends, but as my life is at a bit of a crossroads right now I thought another opinion would help.

Now I am not naive and I know that there are a lot of charlatans out there and even if you don't believe in this sort of thing, just remember I do and I can actually tell if there isn't a spirit guide around.

So anyway, I went to a local clairvoyant and sat there while he told me the usual stuff....
then he freaked me out. I have spent many years getting my qualifications to be a psychologist and he told me that I had a greater purpose and that I wouldn't be a psychologist.... this may sound a bit odd to you out there because it did to me , especially as I have been told this in three other readings over the years..... I freaked.

I have been freaked ever since and I have started to think that all my studying has been a waste of time.

Now logically I know that nothing is set in stone but it was the next part of his reading that has really had a profound impact on me.


THE LOVE BIT <
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I am a terrible romantic and once I feel a bond with a man that's it for me it doesn't happen very often. I like being single a lot and like the freedom of being able to do what I want but part of me is definitely stuck in a Jane Austen book.

So bear in mind that I am already hacked off about the psychologist thing (which I have decided to take with a huge piece of rock salt) he now reveals that I am going to get married three times.

This starts me questioning my attitudes towards love and marriage.

It seems to me that although we women today can do whatever the hell we please nine times out of ten, this fairytale ideal still remains. Even Carrie Bradshaw got her Mr Big.
And although I will get comments saying stuff about fish in the sea and all that ... can I just say that at twenty eight I have had my share of fish , but it has gotten to the point where I wish I didn't believe in true love? It has gotten to the stage where I think I spent too much of my youth watching romantic comedies.

If you really think about it this need to be seen as part of a romance is everywhere in the music charts, on the television, in films, it is all very lovely to be loved, but what is wrong with being alone?

I have spent the best part of a week being far too pensive on this matter, but I have come to the conclusion, the romantic little girl in me craves just ONE (not three LOL) knight in shining armour because then it helps define me and puts me in a box. This isn't to say relationships aren't scary, because opening yourself up to someone is, but the fact is without this I am alone and accountable only to myself and the opportunities are huge.


If you don't feel like rating this, don't . It was just a few things I have been thinking about lately.

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