*I'm hooked on your love, It's Xtasy from Above* (Tennis in General)

Member Name: angiebabyqueen

Product:	Tennis in General
Date:	31/07/06 (160 review reads)
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Advantages: you get to see some of my song lyrics

Disadvantages: I think they need a bit of tweeking

I am a music lover and I thought I would publish a few of my lyric’s I have written over the years. Ever since I was twelve, I had this idea of become a song writer. Now, as things have changed throughout life, I see writing down my thoughts as poetry and occasionally songs which I will come up with a kind of tune to go with it. I have never shown anyone my song lyrics before, so I would be grateful for any constructive feedback to update and edit these lyrics. I see songs as a way of getting out what you feel, and like poetry, it’s brilliant, except you can have any tune with it you want. Will add more of them when I find them all….they are all spread around my room on bits of paper, and in a book somewhere as well….I hope you enjoy.



*Silent Tears*

These silent tears fall down my cheeks
You can’t hear them just like I can’t hear you speak,
I see the tears outside my window,
Enveloping the sun like an unfriendly foe,
The silence in the conversation is killing me,
Can’t you see the strangers we’ve become?
Is it the distance we spend apart,
Or because I let go; lost control of my heart.

(Bridge)
I’ve lost control as some would say,
In the end I’ll know I’ll pay.

(Chorus)
These silent tears fall down my cheeks,
You can’t hear them like I can’t hear you speak,
Another life of self destruction; self harm
Mental abuse, slashes across my arm,
No ‘I love you’ like normal at the end,
That conversation is driving me round the bend,
When did I loose control?
Over my head, my heart and my soul?

I rely on you too much, now I’ve lost all my friends,
This is pain this is torture, I don’t want you to end;
The relationship, started off sweet, perfect, innocent,
I wouldn’t if you ended it, I couldn’t; I can’t,
So many good times, you made me feel like me,
Opened me up, set my soul free,
Or so I thought until I realised,
Your heart and soul can’t just materialise,
In front of your eyes, so gorgeous so brown,
You made me smile or laugh when the world was upside down.

(Chorus)

What happened to the strong girl I once was?
I realise love turns to sadness turns to hatred because,
Love is a drug and you can’t live without it,
Destroying your heart bit by bit,
Love isn’t fun, fabulous and definitely not a game,
So why do we mess around; find others to blame,
When I really trusted, let myself go in too far,
Let you pickle my heart in a filthy jam jar,
It’s gonna end up in shreds in the end anyway,
You could end it today, so why wait for a rainy day,
When you get bored, annoyed, and angry even,
For me not being the perfect angel from heaven;
You probably thought I was in the beginning,
At the end of the day, I’m just a human being,
I’m sorry for not being what you imagined,
Thought about, or even what you dreamed,
In a few days you probably won’t even look me in the eye,
But you’ll tell me one word; goodbye,
But why can’t I talk about this to you?

(Background of Chorus followed by bridge followed by bridge over the top starts up)

(Repeat next stanza over top until end) you might not feel it although you probably do,
I know I’ll hate myself at the end of the day,
I’m the one feeling this and I don’t think it’ll go away,
Love means giving your heart away to be broke
You can’t just cure it with a vodka and coke,
No matter what happiness or what you say,
I’ll always love you, so my heart will never be okay

*Killing me*

I sat and I watched,
I became cold, but I still stared,
My eyes were red and blotchy
Because you my love,
You no longer cared,
I wasn’t your girl anymore,
You traded me in for someone new
Someone less hardcore,
My best friend.

(Chorus)

But before I take the pills,
I write you a note,
Leaving you with the debts and the bills,
Saying I loved you once,
But hey I don’t care whatever floats your boat.

You traded me in with someone I loved and knew,
Someone close, but you know what hurt the most?
Is that you both crept behind my back?
Making me drown near to the coast,
I’ll show you what’s whack,
I’m searching through my home,
Looking for those bottles of pills,
Stabbing at my head with a sharp comb,
Slitting my wrists, the veins in my arms,
Because yes my dear I’m going for the kill.

(Chorus)

You haven’t ended it with me yet,
You’re coming over soon,
What you’ll find is your fate
What you’ll find is your bet,
It isn’t my fate
But you’ve bought me this doom,
(Ooooohhhhhh)
I’ve taken the pills,
I know I’m dying inside,
For me to die may be against your will,
But do I care anymore about your will?
You find me I’m dead,
You phone an ambulance but it’s too late,
I’m bleeding internally on our bed,
You read the note, and I see your face from above,
Full of worry, dismay, sadness, hurt and even pleasure,
Suicide can be murder in so many ways,
But it’s never counted as murder is it?

(Chorus)

*Bricks falling down*

You tell me your there for me,
You tell me you’ll be around,
But you never seem to care,
When I’m feeling up or down.

If I want to tell you something,
You’re always too busy,
Too busy in your own crap,
Or dumping that crap on me.

(Feeling like a ton of bricks is falling down
On top of me, turning my smile to a frown)

(Chorus)
You were independent from the age of four by your own mother,
You said you couldn’t do that to any other,
But you’ve done that to me,
Mentally, emotionally,
I’ve fought for myself,
I’ve cried to myself,
I don’t ever need your hand now,
Deep down I love you, I hate you right now.

I’m left with no freedom,
No time for fun,
I look after your children,
I was a child once without you to hug.

When times were hard,
You’d leave us with babysitter’s,
So you could go out,
And drink your sorrows throughout,

(Feeling like a ton of bricks is falling down
On top of me, turning my smile to a frown)
(Chorus)

I’m fed up of having to help you all the time,
When do I get to go out, I get back and you whine,
The house is a shambles, and you’re breaking down,
I’m left with the mess you made if I leave for a day,
And if I could stand up to you, tell you the truth,
I’m fed up of my home life, but there’s nothing I can do or change

(Feeling like a ton of bricks is falling down
On top of me, turning my smile to a frown)
(Feeling like a ton of bricks is falling down
On top of me, turning my smile to a frown)
(Chorus til end.)

*Living In Sleepless Xtasy*(dedicated to my other half Luke)

Feeling lost in the rain,
Yet I feel no pain,
Because I see you fumble,
At the end of my tunnel.

You hold out your hand,
I take it and loose myself in your eyes,
I hope near the end,
They don’t become full of lies.

(Bridge)
All that love we share,
Like a perfect pair,
Entwines in each other’s lives,
Where each takes as the other gives

(Chorus)
Living in sleepless ecstasy,
Every time you come near me,
You send shivers up my spine,
When you kiss and caress me,
I grab you, you are mine,
I hope we’re not running out of time,
I’m hooked on your love,
It’s ecstasy from above.

Your kisses taste so sweet,
They make my heart skip a beat,
Your touch is so gentle,
It turns my mind insane, and mental.

Last night was like a heavenly dream,
Full of kisses, candy, strawberries and cream,
Being held in your strong arms,
And waking up to your spells and charms

(Bridge and chorus)

All I can think about,
Is memories of me and you,
You only have to call out,
And I’ll run to your side,
You only have to say I love you too,
I’ve melted and drowned beneath your love

(Bridge and chorus)

Hope you enjoyed reading some of the songs I have written over the years. I will add more onto either this review or on more to come in the next few months when I collect them all up together.

Thanks for reading.

Angiexxx copyright 2006

Summary: *Write down your heart in a song, on a peice of paper to keep*