To stay or not to stay that is the question (Life after Death)

Member Name: cornixregina

Product:	Life after Death
Date:	31/10/06 (119 review reads)
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Advantages: ease the feeling of loss

Disadvantages: a feeling that your actions after their death will disappoint them

MY EXPERIENCE

I have always liked to think that there is life after death even from a young age but my opinions intensified on this issue when I was 20.

On 19 November 2003 I found out that my 17 year old boyfriend died suddenly but peace fully in his sleep. A post mortem was done and no reason was/has ever been found for his death. I was told by his mum that he had ordered flowers for my 21st birthday but she had cancelled them because his funeral was on my birthday.

There were lots of people there and he got buried with his mobile because he always had it with him. I laid a single red rose in when he was buried as well.

The day after the funeral while I was staying at my dad's the flowers Steven had ordered arrived at my dad's place and not my own despite his mum saying she had cancelled them.

I got on with life and when I felt I needed Steven I would text him and that helped me get through times when I was at the stage of giving up but unbeknown to me I was about to lose him again.

Xmas Day 2004 I sent out my usual merry Xmas text to everyone. I got a few replies almost straight away including one it seemed from Steven as his name came up with the text. I called the number the next day for it to be answered by a 12 year old boy claiming he got the phone for Xmas.

After doing some more phoning it was discovered that Steven's number had been prematurely or maybe even mistakenly reissued to another sim card..

It's coming up for 3 years now and it hasn’t been or isn't easy. Writing poetry and letters for him has been my saviour and this year I have decided to get a tattoo in his honour.

A hollow heart with a fire inside and the text "It's not the body that keeps you alive, it's the spirit burning inside"

DO I BELIEVE??

Yes I personally do believe in some form of life after death but I don’t believe in reincarnation. The type of life I believe if you can call it that is that of a spirit either of one that is grounded and not crossed over or the free type that isn't grounded but comes in visitation.

There are those of you who would be quick to say, because of my experience, I believe because it makes me feel better and because it is my way of stopping myself from going completely mad. That's what I thought too in the beginning.

Believing does give me hope and keep me going but there are times I just know he is around me. A sweeping warm and calming sensation that I know is him.

I have been to 2 different psychics since Steven's death and both have been good but the most recent one even more so. I am well aware that there are some psychics out there who are frauds and that there are things that you can guess right just by using common sense which requires no psychic ability whatsoever.

On the 25 April 2006, my second time seeing a psychic my life was changed for the better. Carole Chambers Star of Sky channel Living TV came to my town and I went along and was amazed by what she had to say.

I took the last thing I got from Steven (9ct Gold bracelet) and she homed in to there being doubts over how he died. She couldn't tell me why Steven died but she reassured me that it wasn't suicide without me telling her that I had been wondering if it was.

The thing that got me believing of some sort of existence after death was this. She admitted outright that something that Steven was showing her had her completely and utterly stumped. That thing was a shield. Now at first I couldn't think then I remembered one of the poems I had written for Steven has the lines:

"He’s my knight
Who gave my life light"

Except I hadn't written this while he was alive. I wrote it 10 months after he died. Carole knew none of the particulars about my poems to Steven. All she knew was that I wrote poetry and nothing else.

She knew what Steven wanted me to do for his 18th and I never told her. She told me loads more stuff (too much to go into).

That is why I believe even more now than when I was younger that there is some form of existing after life as we know it

I know there will always be people out there who are out to trick you and that there will always be the non believers as such but for me my second time with a psychic came up with so many things that were true for it to be guess work or coincidence.

Thank you for reading

Summary: Another means of being after death?? I'd like to think so