My Anorexia (Anorexia Nervosa)

Member Name: stresshead2000

Product:	Anorexia Nervosa
Date:	17/04/01 (636 review reads)
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At 18 my only aim in life was to lose weight.
I began to diet but it got totally out of control, I became totally obsessed with my weight and however much I lost it wasn't enough.

I looked in the mirror and all I saw was rolls of fat, sometimes I could see myself growing. I was so cold,even in the hottest weather. I always pretended to be full when I was starving and after eating a yoghurt and apple would make myself sick, for fear of putting on any weight.

My family were beside themselves with worry, but their concern only annoyed me and any mention of food or weight would cause a major argument. At 21, in 1984, I was admitted to a psychiatric ward suffering from Anorexia and weighing just over 5 stone, but still convinced I was huge.

I was told I had only 2 days to live, and was treated like a naughty little girl. I had to work to a contract which meant that I wasn't allowed any visitors, no phone calls, not allowed to get out of bed, no watching T.V or no radio until I earned the privelage by putting on weight.

I felt so ill at the time that I didn't really care what happened. Gradually I realised the only way I would get out of that awful place was to eat, so I ate anything I could, until I was strong enough to get out of bed and discharge myself.

I look back now and feel disappointed that the only thing anyone was interested in was making me eat and gain weight, maybe if someone had taken the time to speak to me and try to find out why I was behaving the way I was they might have realised my life was a mess, and who knows, with a little bit of kindness and support I may of stood a chance of making a recovery.

Now although my life is better than back then I still suffer from Anorexia and also swing to Bulimia and would just like to urge anyone out there who suffers from an eating disorder to get help as soon as possible.

Don't be put off by the way I was treated, it doesn
9;t happen any more, there are people out there that understand that the problem isn't really about food and weight and they can give you the help and support that you need.
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*update*

Since writing this op I've been looking at a couple of sites which could be helpful to anyone who may be suffering from Anorexia or someone who has a friend or relative who is a sufferer.

The first one is-:www.bbc.co.uk
Click on the Health section, then go into Mental health, then into Your mental health, where you will find a box on the right which takes you to eating disorders.

The other one is-: www.edauk.com
Here you will also find a section where you can E.mail them for help and advice.

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