My Story (Anorexia Nervosa)

Member Name: SPORTS1335

Product:	Anorexia Nervosa
Date:	19/12/02 (925 review reads)
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Advantages: Skinny, Self-Esteem, Happiness

Disadvantages: Life-threatening, Horrifying, Family

My story is probably similar to all the other issues with eating. I had annorexia and I still do, or I got help and then I just fell back into it. I am a guy which is really unusual for this disease. I am a sophmore in high school. I first fell into annorexia my eighth grade year. I was a chubby kid my whole life and this one guy always made fun of me. Because of this I did something about it. I did not eat. Of course after awhile I lost a tremendous amount of weight and I looked like a skeleton. My mother made me eat after I lost so much weight but I just through it back up. I know when you purge it is bulimia but I didnt binge and I only threw it up when I had to. I got down to about 100 lbs. Maybe less. I had to go to the hospitla, get x-rays, examinations, blood taken. I never told them because I still saw myself as fat. I am an extreme perfectionist. One day my mother found me throwing up a half of a cheeseburger that she made me eat. I then had to get help. I hated her for it. I was skinny and being called skinny all the time. But people called me too skinny. I loved it. I felt perfect. I didnt see myself as skinny then but everyone else did so I was happy but I wanted to get as thin as i could. I still wouldnt eat. Finally my parents said I either had to eat or be admitted to a hospital. I chose to eat. I gained some weight back. Now there is a bunch of people who say I am skinny, some who say I am perfect, and the occasional two or so that say I am fat. I eat one or no meals a day, run four miles a day or more. My mother now is making me only go to the gym every other day. I have to eat dinner. I hate it. I feel fat. My aunt is a doctor and said I am too thin and need to see professional help. I think I do but I do not want to now. I want to get thinner first. I want to be that skeleton again. I look back at the pictures and I like how I looked. I want to get that thin again. I wore a small in kids clothing. I loved it. Now I wear the smallest in mens. I hat
e it. I want to get smaller. If I could I would eat nothing and run all the time. I just wish that I could be perfect. I want everything to be perfect. I want to be thin, extremely thin. I think it looks good.

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