Hungry Hell (Anorexia Nervosa)

Name: coatsie

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Product:	Anorexia Nervosa
Date:	08/02/03 (125 review reads)
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Advantages: Yeah right

Disadvantages: Hunger, No strength, Horrible appearence

Ok, ive never written down anything about my disorder before, so, it'll be interesting. I first started to diet about 2 years ago, after a long period of over eating. I was 6ft and 10st9. Then i disliked my beer gut so i started to run. Then i came out and my role models started to turn towards women.

I started to diet, i was having stressful exams and i was only eating a few potatoes each day. I was running 40 to 50 miles a week and every time that extra lb came off i was extatic. I couldnt eat, i felt bloated and ugly. I started to drink alcohol excessively and not drink water (as it put weight on).

I was 15 when this started, i am now 17 and a skinny tall lad who has no social skills, except for alienating people from my life. My life is hell, i wish i never started this thing that was origionally intended to make me feel better. It became so obsessive that i started to throw up, i was throwing up every meal i ate. Also, some times i want to be fat, so id eat. But then id get so guilty id throw up and use laxatives excessively.

All around me there are obese people, who i dont want to become and i feel bad as i think of the fat from food going into my arteries. It is hell. I now weigh 8st11lb, which may sound a lot, but for someone of 6ft and male, its nothing. I have lost all upper bidy strength and struggle to lift a pint of beer. Sometimes id cry myself to sleep while i clutch my empty hungry stomach which wont stop hurting. I would not wish this disease on anyone, not even to my worst enemy. Today, i accepted that i have a problem, and although my family dont know, i will try to sort it out. It is a truely horrible thing to go through by yourself.

I hope that if you are reading this, that who ever you know that has this will come though it and become a much stronger person. Or if you are reading this and you are annorexic, just lliek me and many others, then you must want to come through it. And you
will.

Thankyou

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