3 years ago I suffered my first bout of anxiety/panic attacks followed by depression. I honestly thought I was losing my mind and that I would be this way for the rest of my life. I got my first symptoms in the month of April and my boyfriend took me to the doctor, because I could not go on my own. I was scared to go outside and my vision was even blurred. I did not feel like I was part of this planet and that I was not in my body-it was awful. The doctor prescribed me Lustral and told me it would only have an effect in a couple of weeks, at the time I thought I would not last this long, but anything would do so I took them. I took it for a few weeks, I was not told to do otherwise and when I started feeling better I stopped. Together with Hypnotherapists and many different doctors I thought my life was getting back to normal after about 4/5 months.

This was not the case. Ever since then I have got this same bout of depression/anxiety once a year and experienced it for the third time in March this year. I went to my Phycologist and he suggest I go on Cipramil for 6 months. I started taking them 4 weeks ago. The first week I thought I was going to die. I was so nauseas and dizzy and I felt like I had a hangover every morning, even though I am not drinking. I hit rock bottom and felt really down. I could not go to work. I thought what am I taking these for? Each week has got slightly better but I am still feeling very cloudy headed, if anyone knows what I am talking about, like I can't go about my daily tasks. I almost feel claustrophobic in my head. That depressing feeling in the morning has gone, and my vision has improved, but if anyone out there is taking these tablets and it also took this long for them to have a mojor effect, please let me know. I will carry on taking them, maybe I should just be a more patient. I am sleeping better though, so that is a good thing.

I know these pills are not a cure and time will only hea
l and a strong will power, but I would like to know that I am not just putting these chemicals into my body for nothing.