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    • Interview Tips & Advice / Discussion / 2 Readings / 30 Ratings
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      Mm okay the phone rang today and it was the darling husband of mine to inform me he had got me a job interview. I had applied to the company a few months ago and after filling in an eight page application form, with no cv allowed to be added, I thought that was that. Oh NOOOOO, I then had to fill in a security clearance form, asking all the usual questions you would expect, but some not so familiar, it even asked if I mixed with any known terroists!!!! Still I filled it all in and.....nothing. Until today, how did I come across an interview at last, was it because I was sooo amazing, my positiveness or my pure cheek of telling them on the form they would do well to employ me!! well no... hubby went to get some chocolate.(on a diet at home!!) and got talking to the personnel managress who was having a sneaky cigarette, they got chatting (mmmmm, nudge, nudge) and I was to phone her. BUT.... still havent got an interview, hahahaha you thought it would be that easy, no I have to now go on Thursday for an hours test on my typing ..eeeeekkk...and IT skills, to show them what I can do, Then... If I pass an interview.... and then wait until a job becomes vacant!!!! Soo wish me look, trying to practise typing now , hence this opinion, but doing so badly...and I will update on the test, and the interview if I ever get one.xx ********************update*********** Sorry yes there arent many tips so heres an update, ok for the interview, unless you wear designer suits on a regular basis..DON'T...you will not be comfortable and it will come across in your interview, be smart in clothes you can be relaxed in. Be yourself..don't put on posh voices and graces, if you get the job they may well want to know who has replaced the smooth talker they employed, if they don't like your accent/voice..then you wont have to be humiliated by being made redundant. Do b
      e polite and keep chat to a minimum, be informative but don't babble for ever, hard as that is!!! Don't lie or exaggerate, it will only make things worse when you are caught out..and you will get caught out. Be honest and tghen with nothing to hide you won't be nrvous trying to remember what is the truth and what isnt. Finally..RELAX>>hard as that is be confident and it will show, why be nervous?? You deserve the job, You want the job..You are perfect for it...show them you will work hard and be keen..can't do any harm at all. I had an interview for my job, I had to show off my keyboard skills, eeekkkk, not a good idea under pressure..but i laughed it off and waspolite and friendly as only I can be...am now awaiting results but in the meantime good luck to all those waiting to hear, thanks for your comments and hopefully wil be writing less as I will be working!!! Newest Update***************************So much has changed, dooyoo and woo world, I didnt get the above job but have started working for a different company, I was asked to use the time for an interview as a study to see what I was doing wrong, as i had been out of work so long, so I was relaxed and confident, and was so shocked on the 4th October, My daughters 2nd birthday to be phoned and told the company were so impressed with me they had made a job opening for me!! I work for sure start now, giving advice and offering respite care within schools twop days a week, I am having immense fun witht he children and have found my vocation, HOWEVER doo yoo has had to take a back seat alongside otehr things in my life, but now I have a diplom and NVQ" in IT the nightschool is over and WOO IS BACK..WOOOHOOO, looking forward to reading what you all been doing.xxxx

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      • Jack Frost (DVD) / DVD / 0 Readings / 19 Ratings
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        07.08.2001 08:14
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        • "mine never look like this!!"

        My one hundredth dooyoo, well as this film is the main highlight of my dear daughters day it seems appropriate to choose this. We live across the road from a video shop and on the odd(honest)occasion we nip in for snacks she always runs to the childrens selection and sits on the floor hugging the video cover to Jack Frost. It makes no difference we actually own this, its something she does. Ok, Now to the film, its a gushy feel good film and I ALWAYS cry at the end, it makes no difference we watch this at least twice a day and I know the dialogue, I still cry at the end. Its kinda like a childrens Ghost but instead of Whoopi we get Micheal Keaton and Kelly Preston replace Demi Moore, and Charle their son well he's just Charlie!! Dad(jack) is a musician who never quite makes it UNTIL a fateful day when he has to travel to be heard for a possible contract..on Christmas Eve. Because of his music he misses alot of Charlies big hockey matches, so he has promised family time Christmas, only to be faced with this dilemma, what does he do???? Well its movieland, he sets off to become the next Bruce Springsteen, but not before a man to man chat with his son and the gift of a magic harmonica, whcih ineviatebly is given back in a sulky manner when dad chooses to go. Of course halfway there his concience gets the better of him and he wants to be with his family, much to the delight of the rest of the band. So he sets off to the family wekkend getaway and on the way he has an accident and crashes. Well sorry to say he dies, and his wife and son are left to get on with it. So we then pan forward a year to the following Christmas, Charlie has no interest in his school pals or snowball fights, and is resigned to being unhappy in true movie style. His mum has a heart to heart to try and cheer him up and results in a slighl;ty funny moment with some hot chocolate and marshmallows. Mum is convinced he will b
        e fine and she goes Christmas shopping leaving Charlie with his dads best mate and former band member. After a chat about the music, his dad the band, Charlie decides to build a snowman, something he always did with his dad when he came home from gigs. It gets started now, he builds a snowman, and a few blows on the magic harmonica and yep, Mr frosty is reborn as Jack Frost, hence the whole idea behind the film. So now you got the jist you have to watch the rest to see what happens, how does Charlie react? how can a snowman help him in a major snowball fight? how do they keep it a secret? why doesnt Sid alllow talk about snowmen? how does Charlie learn the J shot? does his dad ever get to see him in a major hockey game? and what will they do when it comes to meltdown, when the snow goes? This really is a good family film, it has no violence, bad language or sex, but still works WOW!!! My darling sits through the whole film mesmerised and not a peep whilst on, and me well I have to watch and I ALWAYS have to cry at the end. WHY? watch and see!!!

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          07.08.2001 06:53
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          For those who know me I have had many problems in my life, the biggest factor has been depression which has had me go back to my childhood to discover reasons behind why I have done certain things. Recently in therapy I asked how I am fat now when in a text book scenario I should have made myself fat before I was married to make myself unappealing towards men? In fact when I was seventeen I was anorexic and had to have treatment, daily glucose injections, daily therapy, " and why won't you eat Wendie?"..etc, etc. I still have no real answers, its been suggested the parts of my brain which I have no control over (easy now..) made me feel it would be a quick and easy way to die, to forget all the pain and hurt, yet I never felt I wanted to die, or indeed be aware of such feelings. I did feel unloved as I was unloved, but it was not for attention as I never got any. So why did I starve myself and then obese my body? Both actions could have resulted in death which is still suggested but I really feel it wasnt for that reason. I do not think I ate for comfort food either, I enjoy my food and my body just does not ever get full, this is a recognised disease, but obvioulsy to healthcare not when you have been abused/tormented. After the effects of fertility drugs which made me even more obese I now struggle to lose weight as I don't want to die and leave my daughter, but I cannot diet and have been told its useless anyway as I actually have not put any weight on in eight years, although I have remained active, riding my bike as I do not drive, and taking girl guide meetings every Friday, and swimming weekly, I do exercise, it seem I keep a regular size. So I have no answers to be able to say this is why..in fact I would love to know. I was in a dress size 16 when I met my husband, not huge when you consider Marlyn Munroe was the same size, now I am a size 32 dress size. My husband has stod by me throug
          h so much and I love him with all mu heart, so why can't I lose weight to please him as well as me? I am still strong enough to not be swayed by society and their perception of me, my faith keeps me positive and strong to deal with the world. I can only think the depression started with the beginning of events at the age of three, and therefore have some link to my weight/eating problems. Maybe with more therapy I will be able to update this with some reasons. I certainly hope so.

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          • Top 10 Singles / Discussion / 0 Readings / 32 Ratings
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            My favourite top ten singles…..well as a BIG eighties fan nearly everything from 1980-1990 is my favourite and I don’t have a definite top ten but I have chosen ten singles which mean a lot to me and their reasons. Hope there are some memories for others too. Ok…. Black….Wonderful life. “I need a friend, oh I need a friend, someone to make me happy, and not so alone” My teens full of usual angst and despair, but also bullied and unloved I would listen to this song and pray I would one day have a friend, sad but true. George Harrison…..Got my mind set on you. “and this time I know its for real, the feelings that I feel” yep was released a few weeks after I had been going out with a chap I ended up marrying. Funnily enough he bought it for me and I for him without us knowing..we were destined to marry as we had also bought each other the next record… Whitney Houston……I get so emotional “I get so emotional baby, every time I think of you” ahhh the days of young lust and love, when the world was wonderful and mortgage was just a high spelling word in scrabble. A slushy one we danced to at our 80s discos, so much more better than RAVES!!!!!! The Pogues with Kirsty Macoll……Fairytale of New York. “you scumbag, you maggot, you cheap lousy faggot” mmmm hard to believe this song was the first song we heard waking up together for the first time!! Hardly romantic but holds a lot of memories for us two. Celine Dion…..That’s the way it is “when life is empty with no tomorrow” ahh the pain of being told we could never have children was when I found solace in many songs, mainly this but also, Enya, soothing and helpful with a lot of prayers got me through a very difficult time. Desiree..You gotta be. “listen as your day unfolds, challenge
            what the future holds” well we heard this song as we sat in the car about to visit all our relatives and friends to tell them WE WERE HAVING A BABY!!! After all our pain we sat in numbness in the car turned the engine on and with it the radio came on playing this…corny but true. Will always be a special song in the woo house. Savage Garden…I knew I loved you “I knew I loved you before I met you, I must have dreamed you into life” says it all about my baby really, all out hopes and dreams came true with the birth of our miracle baby and as corny as this sounds in the car on the way home from the hospital my husband high on euphoria heard the new song by James ..feel like Fred Astaire with the opening lines. “doctor what’s happening to me, I met a girl who makes me want to fly” so that’s his song here, the only time we disagree. Roy Orbison…..I drove all night “nothing can move me the way that you do,nothing erases this feeling between you and I” well this is a likkle love tune I to listen to when Hubby is away and I want him to come home. I do miss him but don’t tell him!!! Dire Straits…Brothers in arms “you did not desert me my brother in arms” as a teenager with so many problems this made me aware of conflicts ion this cruel world we live in, perhaps it opened my eyes to where I lived and how I could help make a difference…a bit deep but so was the song. Sclub7… Reach “reach for the stars” I suppose the lyrics are ok but the reason I chose thi it’s the first song my daughter at 5mths recognised and really moved about to it, so much so its her first ever single we bought her, and she dances to it, now knows all the words and as well as liking Travis, Britney ,Limp Bizkit, emeneim and chemical brothers (I blame the father) she recognises s club and jives away. Be
            fore baby I gad some favs such as Hazel Oconner..will you. Gary Moore..Empty rooms and Patti Smith…. Because the night, and as life the songs will change as I change, however these are the ones making the most impact in my life for the last two years that stand out, at school was a big Ultravox, Byran Ferry fan, still have the albums but not as listened to as they were at the time. Hope you like my choices. The flowing songs are guaranteed to get me thumping the light fantastic on the dance floor and bring sooo many memories of yoof-ful times of martini and lemonade 54p!!! and a cracking good night!!! Tubthumping - Chumbawumba. Hadaway..what is love. Bananarama..cruel summer/Venus… Dr.Alban..It’s my life, man2man meets man parish..I was a male stripper in a gogo bar… .Damien,,timewarp…. Sweet..wigwambam Simple minds..don’t you forget abput me. Tpau, china in your hand Fleetwood mac…little lies Also not to mention some groups/singers I liked which made the woo a happy bunny in her leg warmers, pedal pushers…didn’t have the legs for ra-ra skirts, and luminous socks, with deely boppers on my head and a trillion billion plastic bangles…I wanted to look like Madonna in Desperately seeking Susan…with me lacy top and accessories!!! Erasure, cher, queen,aha, nik Kershaw, howard jones,inxs,kadjagoogoo, wet wet wet, Bangles, prince Belinda Carlisle, rem, tears for fears…..and ohh so many more.

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            • Angela's Ashes (DVD) / DVD / 1 Reading / 28 Ratings
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              This is another film and book I have seen/read both. I have covered both really in this review as they are silmilar and both excellent and compelling, however the book goes into more detail so I tended to favour this. This is about poverty in Ireland and how a family cope through the eyes of a young boy, Frank McCourt. It tells of the pain and hardship suffered and the indignity of seeing his mother beg for food. Although this makes it sound somber, there are a lot of funny moments, imagine explaining your poverty stricken parents, who are trying to get you school shoes , as you wear none, and the inspectors calling to validate the claim, find they have ’’gone to Italy’’!! Confused ..well this is the name for the upstairs rooms, they have to reside in due to flooding in the lower rooms. Also a funny yet sad moment, is when they realise the mattress they are all sharing is flea ridden, they are seen stamping the mattress in the street, late at night with drunk passer-bys offering their advice to what should be done. On the whole a very sad tale, the father is a drunk with little work, and when he does work the pay goes on the beer, yet at times he buys them treats and they eat like ’’kings’’ when he brings the pay home. However these are far and few between. There is also death in the young to deal with, but it is still very enjoyable film, in a happy but sad way. I did cry alot but maybe that is because I am sensitive, rather than the book being melodramatic. The book makes you believe you are living in that time and suffering with the family as well as sharing some usual boy grows up and learns a few things and happy times. His confirmation is soo sad as well as funny, but you will need to read it to see why. He seems to have an eye problem which is never diagnosed properly and gives him trouble, but does not deter him from reading, which is where his know
              ledge starts on his way to a better life. You feel for him all the way through the book and even wish him good luck as he takes on various jobs in the hope one day he wil make it. There are so many wonderful pieces I would love to share but feel I may give the whole plot away, as you read the book it becomes harder to put down, so I would recommend you read it when you have plenty of time, as you may not sleep if you read it at bedtime, I devoured the whole book in two hours as I couldn’t wait to have the chapters revealed slowly, I needed to see what happened straight away. It also tells how he beacme determined he was going to go back to America, he was born there before coming to Ireland as a child, and he dreams of getting back there and never being hungry again. I have now started Tis ..the sequel and it seems as well written as this, will write a review when finished.

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              • Coyote Ugly (DVD) / DVD / 0 Readings / 16 Ratings
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                MMMM don't know if it is because I am getting old, but I seem to really enjoy films with mmmm young men in!!! If in tight clothing or accents even better, both and I don't need popcorn!! Thank goodness Coyote Ugly has the delicious Adam Garcia with an Austalian accent to die for....wonder if it is his real voice or not??? He plays Mr. O'Donnell, no Christian name for now, see the film to see why.The small town girl, all soinnocent is Violet Sandford, played by Piper Perabo, an she kept the hubby happy with her dancing and looks. Its a run of the mill story with not alot of big surprises, and you feel all gooey and happy at the end...you know the sort. Violet is a songwriter who just wants to hear someone famous sing her songs. She goes to New York to make it big, and first finds out it isnt as easy as she thought. One moment when she asks a record companys manager to listen to her tape takes me back to 15 again...why? well the manager is played by Elizabeth Beckwith, (The dance teacher Lydia from Fame, remember.."you want fame, well fame costs and right here is where you start paying" she plays this very small part with loads of humour...what has she been doing. Anyways it seems to get her songs published she has to perform them live first..well obviously she suffers from terrible stage fright and can only perform other artists songs, never her own. Love interest Mr. O'Donnell, okay it's Kevin, tries everywhich way to help her, even with the help with a precious Spiderman comic. The film is about Violet trying to make it, and after a bad few days ends up working as a Coyote, the bar we all want to drink in so called Coyote Ugly..as "cheers was taken".The bar is owned by Lil, played by Maria Bellow, the boss who is strict but likeable and good on her for giving our gal a try. It's a place for dancing, drinking having fun....just don't order water. Her
                e Violet becomes Jersey, the kidergarden nun, who against all obsticles makes it to be a coyote. Don't want to ruin the film but when she has to make 250.00 in two hours, well this is a briliant piece of the film, not just for the fab tune but mmm it's a man's body! All through the film the songs are just right, with the right mix and gets you in the mood. A lot are provided by Leanne Rimes as well as other very good artists. A surprise dance by Tara Banks is mixed in, and even john Goodman tries his hand with a bar dance. All done in the best possible taste. One memorable part has to be the first tiome Jersey takes to sing in Coyote bar, but you will need to see for yourself why it is so good. Does she ever conquer her stage fright? Will her dad find out she works in a dodgy bar? Will she get the man? Who will sing her songs if she ever makes it? why does she get sacked? And what has fish got to do with all this? Rent this movie for a real treat, I promise you will feel good after it, the world will be lovely once more, and you will be singing Inxs with a smile on your face all day!

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                • Scalextric / Electronic Toy / 1 Reading / 23 Ratings
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                  My first experience of Scaletrix was the cold winter (just kidding) of 1989, when the main work place in my town, went on strike. It lasted months and many hardships were endured but we were brave. None so than the twelve men who used to call at my home from 9ish-5ish,and they spent hours, not discussing the strike or the meetings, nope, they had to plan and devise tracks, and schedules and races, as foolishly I purchased a box of scaletrix bits at an auction. Five cardboard boxes of various track and cars and other bits and bobs, all for fivepounds, soon were deposited in my front room, when my husband looked all of seven, rubbing his hands in delight and joy..(why I have no idea but then I am female!!) The plan was simple, they made tracks that ran under and around furniture, had pit stops and also when others were not racing they took over my kitchen to make all the scenery and crowds, I never knew how to make model trees before all this!! They had alot of fun, the noise from their cheers and jeers , as well as the cars all day did get on my nerves, and forever having to watch where i stepped made me soo long we never had children. I t got to a point when all their strike money went on buying new cars and we had different races for different types, stock cars, formula 1, it went on and on. The worst thing they ever did one afternoon after being on strike for five months was try to teach the cat to chase the cars. The cat was scared at first but eventually got brave abd they did think it so funny and worthy of a place on you've been framed once the cat started chasing the cars. BUT< boy after a few days the cat got braver and would sit under a chair, wait for a race to start then POUNCE..and knock the car off the track..wow..did they ever swear!!! They soon wished they hadnt started. In a way it was sad when after ten months they went back to work, they promised to carry on every weekend, but eventu
                  ally bit by bit the pieces were stored in the cellar, and they havent emerged for over ten years but we now have an eighteen month baby girl, and I wonder how long it takes hubby to try her with a small track!!!!!!Hopefully the cat behaves this time!!

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                  • Bradford & Bingley / Bank / 0 Readings / 38 Ratings
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                    When my daughter was born as well as gifts she accumalated large sums of money, so decideding to bring her up with some sense of saving we opened an account for her. Well we opened a few, each bank/building society had perks and free gifts to be gained, so we went for the lot. For convenience whenever she gained more money we deposited into the Bradford and Bingley, as it was the nearest to our home. Imagine our surprise after six months to get a letter stating as we had made three or more deposits we were entitled to another free book, in addition to the one we recieved when we opened the account. We made our choice and two weeks late Barney and his chums was on the bookshelf. The next surprise came to us in the form of a statement, we had earned £3.89 interest in six months with just £45.00. Finally came the last surprise, after another six months, we can choose yet again another free book. We have chosen nursery rhymes this time. The catalogue to choose the books from covers all ages from birth -teens, so wide representive is given, whenever an account is opened you automatically choose a book, but no where does it state you get the chance to get more. We are awaiting our next statement and hopefully another book, but if not we are still very happy with the service. We were unhappy with them at first as they did not send a birthday card, but they have more than made up for it, as the books are all in the £5-8 region. All in all a good choice definetely as it encourages children to save with rewards that are useful too. The bank book is in bright colours with its own case as well.

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                      We used to bank with this **** we can't use a nice name to describe them. We had been with then for 6yrs and every Thursday hubbys wage would go in without fail until one fateful Thursday they didnt and it just so happened when Christmas Day was on a Saturday,and hubbys work had closed for the holidays so there was no way to check and rectify mistake. So we foolishly went to bank and asked them for a loan/overdraft of wages until new year, even took wage slip which showed it should have been in account, BUT to our amazement we were told as we had no credit history we would be unable to do so, Christmas, no pressies, no money, I am ashamed to say I started crying but to no avail, they would not help. Well New year came and we eneded our services with these people and we got out and joined a new bank. The bank then had the cheek to send two letters, one saying we would be charged 50.00 for ending account without proper notice and the other saying we had gone unauthorised overdrawn and would be charged....AND both letters must have been typed in gold as they cost us a further ten pounds each to send!! We went into branch to try and sort it out and were given the same compassion we had before Christmas, in fact it is now ten years on we still owe them 350.00 but as they failed to contact (find) us within three consecutive years we are now owing them zilch, and its legal and they cannot effect our credit (bigg laughs..sorry). I now patiently wait for the day hubby wins the lottery and we go to this lot and waste hours of their time getting free drinks and snacks and advice, whilst waving cheque, before oops, thats right dearv this WAS the bank that didnt help us so..You are the weakest link..GOODBYE. Lots of menacing laughs here!!!!!!!!!!!

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                      • Parking Fines and Clamping / Discussion / 0 Readings / 20 Ratings
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                        First I do not drive...only people up the wall,..but I do hate getting fines form hubby having had to park in restricted areas, usually to get the pram out of the car. In our area the wardens are like flash lightning, ticketed and off before pram is assembled!! We have found if we moan and groan 9/10 times we are let off with the fine don't know if it will work in bigger towns..but even in you appeal you get a couple more days to find the money if you still have to pay. You don't even have to pay the increase for not paying within a limited time as you appealed!! Now, Cornhill insurance have found a legal loophole if you are fined and have to have points applied to your licence, Listen very carefully, Send a cheque for two pounds more than is required, when DVLA return the extra two pounds in acheque...DO NOT CASH, as long as cheque is not cashed the points will not get added to your licence. This has been tried and tested and is all down to a legal loophole in the way the system is run, and untill it is ever sorted out is worth bearing in mind. Mind even more would be don't speed and drive carefully, but you havent seen me with a buggy!!

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                          Depression, mine started when I didnt even know how to spell the word, due to unfortuately being adopted then my parents immediately becoming parents I was unwanted, farmed to any Aunt who would have me untio at the age of 5 my grandparents on my mothers side took me in. They loved me and all was well until my grandmother suffered Cancer and died, I had to go back to my parents as my grandad was grieving, by this time they were mum, dad and two girls all close, and me. I was pretty much left alone which suited me, I had all the bullying at school as I was dressed in unfashionable clothes from jumble sales, but I found a great comfort in books....I could escape to anywhere and be anyone. I thought i was normal until the day when I was 15yrs, my uncle had taken me home from a party and as I went to kiss him goodnight he asked for a proper kiss and went to kiss me in a way uncles dont kiss, nothing harmful really, I went in crying and a bit upset but went to bed, thinking it would be alright in the morning. Oh I wish, the incident opened the part of my memory locked far away which remembered how I was abused time and time again. The nightmare I had that night I owuld not wish on my enemies, I woke up and what scared me more was I only had a part of a dream in my head...but I could remember the rest? seemed illogical to my mind so I tried to push it away, only to have the same dream again and again, always waking up and always knowing the end. After 8mths I approached my mother and asked if something had happened to me when I was younger, and she said in such a casual way, that a friend of a friend, had abused me continuasly for a year, and I was only four at the time. She then asked me to leave as she had been told I would never remember this and she was upset I had. This was when I started to get depressed, I had no help or support and did not know how to deal with all this rubbish going on in my head, I
                          just blundered through life and when I started college I became the clown, it was easier to have everyone laugh at me and leave me alone, then be bullied. I was accepted and even now in my adult life most people knopw me as that nutter or the mad one, as in the fact I laugh and joke. At one stage when I was stressed with exams and could not cope I tried to take an overdose, but it was a cry for help, I had my stomach pumped, taken home form hospital and grounded for two months. As you can see I had no support in my life. I did have a dream, to meet a wonderful man, with a close family and they would love me instead, well I met the wonderful man but sadly he was raised by his grand mother and it was just the two of them, still we have some happy memories of the time we had before she passed away. After ten years of unsuccesful fertility attempts it was a heartbraking day to be told we would never have children and this was when the depression took an even stronger hold. Before I used to have bouts of temper and shout for little reasons, and everyone would say it was because I was a red head..and I would think so too, not understanding depression as I do now, and carried on being pulled into the grasp of an evil illness, unaware. After a miracle, I had my daughter and after she was born, all the insecurities, the saddness of being told I would not have achild, the relief of holding her in my arms and all the other million bad feelings in my head emerged until I would wake up crying and feel sad all day. I assumed it was tiredness and did not seek help, and it got deeper and deeper and deeper, until the day I sat watching my baby asleep in her crib and |I just wished I could fall asleep, and die in my sleep. I felt unloved, unworthy and I just did not want to live, I stared at my daughter and cried and cried. I would love to say she woke up and smiled at me, which she did, and everything was alright, well this
                          is real life, I took the first step to admitting I need help, I spoke to my health visitor who told me I had severe depression and needed counselling and help form the doctor, this upset me, pills and help....not me I was just tired. I did get the pills and I still have the counselling, but those feelings of being unloved and unwanted are still there, it is hard when someone asks how you are, and you tell them you are having a bad day as you are down, and they assume a joke and then saying cheer up, will make it all better. Its a long proccess back to being "normal" but admiting you feel sad and having wonderful internet friends to talk to has really helped me, and the support and love I have from my husband will be the rock of our marriage, our daughter helps me focus on the fact I need to get these ghosts locked away in order she may have a happy upbringing, and each day thanks to a new found religion I can thank God for so many things its now a joy to wake up each day. I shared this with you to show how depression can start and take hold and never even be aware until it is too late, it doesnt just go away and it isnt a women thing, its an illness and untreated can cause much suffreing and grief. Its starts by feeling sad and tired and esculates, please if you feel at all unwell and feel in need "of a tonic" speak to someone, the first time you say, I SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION, is the hardest after that you get help. update**************** Ok.. the depression has had a stronger hold for a couple of months, hence my disappearance from dooyoo, however iIam climbing back and was given something from a good friend I would like to share: I feel I really want to share a prayer that was given to me this morning. I am trying to deal with emotions of abuse, rape, depression, bad childhood and motherhood!! and am a little raw, a friend gave me this today which I feel might help some-one, even i
                          f you do not follow a faith, perhaps just the fact it seems to talk to you personally and the author KNOWS how you feel, will help you know you are not alone. Dear God, I come to you with an overwhelming anger, A bursting rage, This rage is like a cancer shut up in my bones, Eating away at my soul, Today, I acknowledge this rage, I do not suppress it, Or hide from it. Thank you Lord, Thank you for accepting me Rage and all. Oh God I feel a burning rage within, A fire gone wild, Burning, always burning, God I hate what was done to me, It was so evil, It was so wrong. Why this evil? Why this degredation? Why? Why? Why? My rage is the only power I have against this vicious world, That's why I cannot let it go. Don't ask me to let it go, I won't survive. God I cannot seperate my hatred for what was done, From the person who did it, I despise the deed, I loathe the person who did the deed, My rage is my only revenge, But my rage destoys me too, I feel this seething anger searing from my soul, Please help deliver me from this evil I owuld do to myself. I REFUSE to allow this evil to control me anymore, I WILL NOT be held in bondage to my hate any longer, BUT, the strength to love, is not in me, I must wait for your enabling, Now with your help and great power and with atrembling heart, I speak your word of forgiveness... May your healing light shine into every crack and crevice of my soul, Rage once made me feel strong, but now I recieve your love, strenghtening me day by day. I have not forgotten what was done to me, I WILL NEVER FORGET But today is the day I realise I am NOT worthless, it WAS NOT my fault and I CAN break away and begin a new life where I AM IN CONTROL. ******************************************** As I said even if you follow no faith, please take strength from the words, know not only have others been there and suffered similar deeds, but also you can recover and heal the wounds. I hope this helps someone today, it made me cry but also gave a me a new meaning, someone cared enough to give this to me and in return I care enough to pas it on to YOU and wish you peace and be well.

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                          • Tidgy Puds / Online Shop / 1 Reading / 28 Ratings
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                            23.03.2001 18:32
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                            On the mother and baby notice boards..on the web site, many mums are advertising their own web sites from which they sell babies and childrens clothes and itemes. One such site is Tidgy-puds, the home page has a delightful storyboard with photographs of the web owners children, and you are introduced to them on the next page. This makes you feel welcomed already. The goods range from boys/girls clothes, to prams, nursery products, bathtime fun and many more. I selected a three piece denim outfit for my daughter and the cost was £6.24 for postage as well as the clothes!! An automatic email was sent to the seller who responded immediately with a pleasant email, informing me how I could pay and where to send cheque/postal order. The goods were sent within a week of ordering and I was really pleased with them. On the site there is a description with a photograph of all the things you can buy and the honesty plays a big part, ranging from brand new with tags to well worn but in very good condition. If anything is repaired, ie, a button sewn back on, this is pointed out so you know exactly what you are purchasing. You can even send an email for more details on a product and request further photos and the seller, Sonya is really nice to correspond with and as a mum herself understands the type of questions about wearability etc. All in all worth checking out or sending to anyone you know with a baby or young children. www.tidgy-puds.bigstep.co.uk

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                              Last night I took a night off Dooyoo, shocking I know...and watched a film on the satellite, 10 things I hate about you. Well, at first glimpse another teen film with the usual lust, boy meets girl, boy wants girl, girl wants boy, fall out, make up, type thing. In a way it is but it has been put together very well and the actors well chosen. The start is a mis-match of meet the characters and their backgrounds, the main issue is two sisters, Bianca - daddy's girl, all sweetness and light, then we have Cat, misunderstood, grungey child from hell. Daddy is a doctor, who delivers numerous babies to underage girls, so is heavy on his girls to the point they cannot date, therefore they will not get pregnant. One incident in the film is when he gets Bianca to wear "the belly" a device to give an impression of pregnancy. After usual teenage tantrums of "it's not fair" daddy changes the rules, If Cat dates then Bianca can, as he is under the impression NO-ONE will date his wildcat daughter. Here enters our next characters, the new boy Cameron, the male model, sportsman, Joey, and a wonderful (sorry personal opinion) wild boy Patrick. Cameron approaches Joey with a no fail plan to pay Patrick to date Cat, so Bianca is free to date. This is done in a really funny way with alot of twists and laughs, which I will not ruin, but they are good.There are the usual accidental "meet-ups" where the characters discover things about each other, and sometimes you find out these are no coincidences, but they really do like certain music, books etc. So, Cameron and Joey are after Bianca, and Patrick is paid to go after Cat, well predictably the plan starts to work, but Bianca finds out Joey is a self centered pratt, and Cameron is the cool guy, meanwhile, Cat begins to like Patrick and he starts to fall for her for real..(never saw that coming!!) and then..she finds out he has been paid and
                              this is where the film really picks up. Cat always has arguments with her English tutor as she is soo pre-women and fights for the sisterhood cause, and he is a coloured right on type of guy, resulting in a lot of funny quips between them, and it is in one of these lessons she reveals her true feelings through an assignmnet, but is it too late to rescue her relationship with Patrick? Bianca ends up with the right guy in the end. (watch the film to find out if you guessed right) and they try to get Cat to be happy but she has a few issues still to deal with, one being her dad, whom never sees eye to eye with her, and will not allow her to attend a college in a different state. It turns out he is scared of them leaving as he is insecure form their mother leaving him, so they have a good wholesom heart to heart and everything is resolved, good old movie style. So all thats left is the ending, and how do things turn out? Well ......nah..watch it and see. The ten things I loved ,okay, here they are, dont read this bit, until you have watched the film, however if you sneak I will try to leave them in a brief manner so as not to ruin it too much!! 1. Patrick... Nuff said, he is super, fab and cool and looks to die for, mmmmmm. 2. I love you baby....brilliant song performed ..never thought a love song could make you laugh so much!! 3. Cat discussing football tactics with the coach to get Patrick out of detention!!! They would distract anyone, hehehe. 4. Camerons pal, his dancing, his girl pulling prowess!!!his one liners. 5. The belly....she looked soo sweet as a mommy!! 6. The swing at the party, when they finally talk, awwww. 7. Cats assignment, when she starts crying I did too, boohooo. 8. Cats fights with the English tutor, even when she agrees with him, she gets sent out!! 9. The music, a brilliant band, Letters to Cleo, with some brilliant tu
                              nes. 10. It has to be the guitar in the car, followed by THE kiss.

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                              • Basics4baby.co.uk / Online Shop / 0 Readings / 25 Ratings
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                                17.03.2001 06:30
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                                Any mum or dad knows children grow soo quickly and theclothes sometimes are worn once or twice then they are no good. For this reason I was browsing the internet when I came across a new site run by a mum http://www.basics4baby.co.uk The lady in question is Lorraine and as she states on her page: "It is so easy for a child to wear something once and by the time they wear it again, find they have outgrown it already. Too many of these lovely clothes go to waste. Well, not anymore. Now you can find good-as-new baby and children's clothes and accessories at a fraction of the high street cost. Those clothes that have been forgotten about and those that never got to show off their full potential can now be found right here, at basics4baby.co.uk." There are sub sections for boys and girls clothes and for different age groups. Also accessories and a guestbook to sign. The layout is eye catching and bright, with paint splodges to remind you this is a child friendly site. The photos are self explanitary and not thumbnails so you get a good view. Although the stock is limited at the moment, due to the newness of the site, and the popularity in which they sold, there will be more added, well worth a browse and keeping an eye out.

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                                • ebay.co.uk / Auction / 0 Readings / 27 Ratings
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                                  16.03.2001 17:39
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                                  I have heard of this auction internet site time and time again, but thats it. Until last week, when the pc was playing up and very few sites I requested were available, I was taken to Ebay by a search engine, and was hooked immediately. Many items auctioned are second hand or unwanted gifts, but honesty is the key to a good sell and most flaws are pointed out so the bidder knows exactly whats to be had. There were numerous bargains to be had, I started looking at baby items and noticed things selling for 50p!!!! and they were good things too, I wanted lots!! BUT..... First you have to register and then wait for a confirmation email, AND its no good if you have a hotmail account!! BOO HOO. However, renewing my aquaintance with worldonline I was able to rectify this and two hours later, armed with confirmation email...I went shopping. Basically you look at the index, decide what areas you want to look for items in, then everything is listed with a brief description, the amount bidded to date, and when the bid ends. A lot of bids also have photos accompanying them,and you have the opportunity to email the seller with any queries you may have. When you make your bid you are asked for an opening bid and then what price will you go up to, this is not disclosed, and only used if you are bid against. When you make a bid you are kept informed all the way through the auction, first you are told of accepted bid, then if anyone outbids you, so you can re- bid or leave. Finally at the end of the auction if you are successful you are sent an email detailing the bid and item and contacting address for the seller, you then get in touch, arrange payment and postage details, and await your parcel. With so much choice, household, toys, appliances, clothes, garden, car its easy to get addicted and with such low bargains to be had, watch out for the spending. Your account details also show how many items yo
                                  u have bidded/won/lost, and what your outgoings are. The site has been well thought out and is so user friendly, it must be as I managed it really well and I am sooo bad with technology!!! The navigation is simple and if you have yet to visit this fantastic,brilliant site, please do not hesitate further, I kick myself at the bargains I have missed.

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