hey there guys

just spent an hour or so reading everyones reviews!read one about a parents divorce from emma!!made me cry, my parents aint divorced but im a single parent at the age of 21! i had my gorgeous blue eyed baby boy at the age of 18 to this complete div!

my fault i know but i love my son to pieces and the way i see it now is that my son is my life. i was off work until he was 1 and a half years old but then i thought to myself i need to get off my backside and make a proper life for the most important person in my life ever!

so i got a job rented my own house moved out of mummy and daddys house anf for the first time ever i stood on my own two feet, i feel so much better for doing this and my baby boy is very clever and very happy!

i never asked to be on own bringing up a child but thats the way the world goes im afraid. just because im a single parent doesnt make me a scubber or any less of a mum than a parent in a relationship, in my opinion it makes me a better parent as i have to make up for the love he is not getting from his father!

im on my own and i have now accepted that and am making sure my son is happy and he gets everything he wants and needs. he is all kitted out in "next" and "gap" has the very best clarkes shoes and adidas trainers, he is my designer handbag and i take pride in him.

his daddy thinks he doesnt know what he is doing but believe me that little boy knows everything that is going on.we were together for 3 years on and off and he never changed his nappy fed him a bottle bathed him or dressed him but i see it as his loss as he does not have that bond which me and my son have. he left us on christmas day this year to go and be with somone elae and her child and that hurt more than anything that someone elses child would now come before his own!!

my little boy started being naughty but i never shouted at him i just showered him with cuddles and kisses and told him that mummy loves him, i never say a bad word about his father even though i hate him because that is for my little boy to make up his own mind and in time im sure he will.

what hurts the most is that my exes mum and dad and sister have not seen my little boy since christmas day and have not made any effort to get in touch or anything at the end of the day they are still his grandparents but they dont care its as though if we aint in there sons life then we aint in theres but once again it is there loss!

my little boy is so clever and so special that if people chhose to no longer be in his life stuff them all as long as i am here and give him the love and support he needs he will grow up to be a handsome loving young gentleman!

so i hear you all asking would i do it again!!no would i eck children shoul be in a proper loving family with a mum and a dad but my boy is loved. if i have another child i want to be married in a proper relationship, but for now i will do what i do best and that is be the mummy i know i can be and make sure my child is happy!

well thsnkyou for taking your time to read this hope i aint bored you to tears i look forward to reading your comments

if anyone would like to talk my email address is lauramarshall86@aol.com
lots of love laura xx