Our angel son - Jack (Pregnancy Complications)

Member Name: gingerella

Product:	Pregnancy Complications
Date:	14/06/09 (184 review reads)
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Advantages: We got 8 wonderful months with Jack

Disadvantages: The pain of losing our son is the hardest emotion I have ever faced

I was overjoyed when I discovered I was pregnant at the beginning of last year. Me and my boyfriend had been together just over a year but I knew he was the man I wanted children with so although it was a surprise it was a very happy one. I had bleeding in the first trimester so the doctor did another pregnancy test and sent me for a scan but the sonographer said everything was fine and we saw our baby for the first time which was the most beautiful sight in the world. At every midwife appointment from then on baby's heartbeart sounded strong and baby was moving around so much we were told we better get reigns for when it was a toddler. At 20 weeks we found out baby as a boy and at 24 weeks we got to see his face for the first time on a 4D scan. He had my nose and we marvelled at how cute our baby boy was. After that I was monitored by the midwife measuring my stomach. I was spot on the measurements I should be for the dates so we all felt very confident that baby boy was doing well. Me and my boyfriend decided he should be called Jack. Then one night at 35 weeks I started having stomach pains that felt like trapped wind (which you get a lot in pregnancy - so I wasn't concerned). When the pain was still there when I woke up the next day me and my partner wondered if they were contractions. We timed them and they were irregular so we thought it must be false labour. My partner went to work and then my mum came round. She thought I didn't seem right so I rang the maternity unit and went in. They put a heart monitor on my stomach but seemed to be having problems. I began to feel more scared than I have ever felt in my life before. A doctor came and did a scan but he did not say the usual things they say to you. I just saw a concerned look on his face. Me and my mum began crying and praying that Jack was okay. Another doctor came after what seemed a lifetime and said the words that ended my world "I'm sorry, your baby is dead." I began to sob and rang my boyfriend. I couldn't tell him the news over the phone but he knew something was terribly wrong and drove to the maternity unit. When he came in I felt so guilty for what my body had done. Another doctor came to examine me and said I was 8cm dilated and the pains were contractions. They explained I would be taken to a private room on the maternity unit where I would have to give birth to Jack. About 8 hours later I finally managed to give birth to Jack. It was so hard to keep pushing knowing that he was dead. When the midwife put him on my stomach he looked so pink and perfect that I thought he could still be alive and willed him to cry like the other babies on the ward I could hear through the walls. Me and my partner stayed over night in the room with Jack and leaving him at the hospital the next day was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Next month it will be a year since we lost Jack and it doesn't feel that long ago. I can still remember everything from that day so clearly. We decided in Jack's honour we would live our lives the best we could. Jack showed us how precious and fragile life is and we will never forget our first born son.

It seems strange to have to rate this experience but I would choose 3 because the 8 months we spent with Jack were the happiest of our lives. We miss him every day.

Thank you for listening.

Summary: Remember life is precious