I was pregnant at 14..nobody knew until the last few weeks. (Teenage Pregancy)

Member Name: wimmy

Product:	Teenage Pregancy
Date:	02/11/00 (3950 review reads)
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I find a lot of snide comments that people make about teenage pregnancy hurtful.Not all of them get pregnant on purpose,we arent dumb,for most they get caught out because they want to be 'grown up'before their time.

I could never talk to my parents about anything.I had my first period when I was 14 and used to buy what i needed out of my dinner money.

I only ever had about three periods before I fell pregnant.
I knew about sex and how you have babies but at that age you never think it will be you,after all you get the girls at school who sleep around with loads of men,they NEVER got caught out.
I had run away from home,caught after a week by the police I was expecting the tv scene...mum and dad will have missed me,throw their arms around me,tell me they loved me....like hell they did.
"you stupid b*tch,do you know what you've put us through?"
So much for love eh!
Grounded indefinately.My older brother had a car in some garages next door but two.I was allowed as far as there.
He used to hang out with his mates..they were all around 18.
I was a part of the gang...they didnt treat me like a kid.
Thats where I started to grow fond of HIM..i wont put his name down.
He gave me attention,love, I was dazed and felt wanted.
I didnt really think about sex.We just did it once,thought we were careful.
I was only with him for about a month.
I missed a period and thought nothing of it as I had never started properly anyway.
Down the line I put on a little weight,went from a size 10 to a size 12.Hardly fat,didnt think anything of it.
I must've been about 6 months gone when I had a suspicion.The pregnancy test confirmed it.I can never describe how terrified I was.
I had nowhere to turn,I didnt want this thing to be inside me,my parents would kill me.I tried bunnyhops up the stairs,I tried to give myself an abortion in the bath.
Nothing worked.I just kept thinking this thing w
ill be out around christmas then nobody will know.
Looking back I was all messed up.
A teacher found out when she tapped my tummy as she told a joke.
My mum was told.It came to light at the beginning of November.
Countless visits to social workers...too late for an abortion..4 weeks after I was found out, I had a little girl.
The father never wanted to know.
The birth was awful,nurses pinning me down.Mum took over...so much that my little girl wasnt really mine anymore.
What could I give her?A Saturday job would only cover the cost of a bag of nappies.
I let mum adopt her,she didnt want me walking in and taking her away down the line.
I know I made the right decision,it was heartbreaking and I will always feel guilty.
I have two more children,a husband,a job and lovely home.
My Firstborn knows the truth,she loves her brother and sister...and my mum is so happy.
I believe I gave her too another chance at life...she is out all the time now doing activities,music,tap..all with our little girl.
I just hope she can forgive me,I just wanted the best for her,and I still believe in my heart I did the right thing.
I just wish I had the guts to get contraception,but then I was just a STUPID kid.

I would like to add just a little more...if you happen to be in the same situation or know of anyone who is please feel free to email me.
This isnt something anyone should go through alone and I'd be more than happy to give you a call if you need to talk.

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