From fairly early on in my pregnancies (both times), I decided that I did not want to breastfeed - don't ask me why - to this day I still don't know why - I just really did not want to do it.

Well anyone would think I had committed the crime of the century - not even giving it a go.

I went into hospital, when I said I didn't want to feed myself, I was made to feel guilty, wrong, and like someone who really shouldn't be having a baby.

I was given some bottles of milk and left to 'get on with it' - no instruction or anything - no advice as to how much the baby was supposed to drink or anything.

Luckily, my mother-in-law came into hospital shortly after (baby mad) and showed me what to do.

I was surrounded by people breastfeeding, being given loads of attention by the midwives as to how to hold the baby, how to feed the baby etc etc. Why was I left to sort myself out - is it more natural to bottle or breastfeed???

I went home, continued bottlefeeding - if I needed a rest, my hubby or grandparents could feed him and I went for a sleep. At night we would take it in turn to feed him so we could both rest.

Making up bottles is a pain, but within a week you have a routine & it really isn't any bother.

The second time round, I refused to feel guilty & just sorted myself out again.

Neither of my kids apear to have suffered any negative effects from being bottle fed.

I would say though to all those that definately want to breastfeed - give it a go - but - if it doesn't work out, for whatever reason - do not feel guilty for swopping to a bottle. It is more important at the end of the day for you to feel happy and not stressed - which is then passed on to the baby - than trying to keep up with something that has been forced onto you as part of a guilt trip.

Do what ever feels right & enjoy your baby - they grow up so fast.